Happy 21st Birthday

They say that only the good things stick around. Such a shame you weren’t one.

It’s been 21 years that you missed. 21 years of complete growth into the woman I am today, and thank you for never being the father I needed you to be. Because you have missed out on so much, your other child didn’t have a sister like she wanted. You didn’t only hurt me, but you hurt her. That’s some real love you have there.

Happy 21st birthday. Funny how our birthdays are 3 days apart. Bet you didn’t know I knew that. I also know where you live and how to contact you. But because I’m trying to control this rage I hold deep inside, I haven’t made contact. Heartless is the man who loves one child and not the other.

I want to be okay with this, but I have never been able to handle people coming in and out of my life. You’re either in or you’re out. Maybe I’m being a tad petty, but forgive me, you had this coming a long time. One day when I brave enough to face the harsh truth of why you left me, I hope you’re prepared for some comments I’ve been keeping to myself.

I’ve made contact with your other child. In fact, we talk nearly every day. It’s not her fault her dad is a loser. Rather, it’s yours. You’re pathetic. Why did you never come back? Was I your worst mistake? I’m not an accident. I am here for a reason, and I hope that reason is to show you how well of a father you were for never coming around.

You see, I have a dad. He’s been a part of my life ever since I was 8. He has shown me what dad’s are supposed to do for their children. Because of you, he deserves all the credit. He’s the man who will be walking me down the aisle when I get married. He’s the one who saw me at my weakest moment and hasn’t given up on me.

You, you just left. I did nothing for you to give up on but simply exist.

Happy 21st birthday from the child you never loved.


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