No amount of words can explain what I feel.
Between joy and chaos I’m torn right down the middle.
I guess you could say I’m sappy (both sad and happy).
The cave that’s in my chest hasn’t seen light in a couple of days.
I feel like an earthquake.
Just shaking and nonstop spinning.
I want to tell myself that I am okay, but I can’t.
My body disagrees with every step I take.
Being alone only makes it worse.
The tiredness that hangs under my eyes pulls me down even more – no energy.
“Just be happy,” you say.
“Smile,” they tell me.
Yeah, because there’s a switch for what’s happening in my body.