You are so much more than you believe you are.
You constantly work until your body tells you to stop and rest. You continue to go to school. Between both of those and living alone, I’d say you’re doing just fine.
Though there are times you think you may not make it, remember how far you have come. Remember those people who said you would never make it on your own? Prove them wrong. Those people who had no hope in what you were trying to pursue in life don’t even have degrees. While waiting tables isn’t an ideal life time job, you question the bitterness in their undertone.
Two jobs? No big deal. Prove to them that you can take care of you. You don’t need to let them knock you down brick by brick. They might as well light a match and watch you burn down into nothing if you are going to allow that.
Being independent is actually quite scary, but being alone is what bothers me the most. The quietness of an empty house or the random noises in the middle of the night mess with my head. Pepper spray can’t take care of those two things.
I want to give up, but I won’t allow myself.
Get up, clean up, and be brave.